Alright….apparently I am not a patient person, but I am beginning to get sort of annoyed and what not with P.
Yesterday, bless his heart, he did the Carrboro Classic Long Course Duathalon….Run, then Bike, then run again.
I was supposed to come and cheer him on, which I wanted to, but I had to work. Since I discovered the long course took him a little over hours, I was actualy pleased not to havebeen out on the course at various points for that long. He was not last….he was second to last. Bless his heart. I couldn't have even done it.
We had dinner after I finished my shift at work. We went to Panzenella,a nice Italian place that has outoor patio seating. I had lovely scallops, and he had some sort of pork. We had a nice bottle of wine. It was very fun.
Afterwards we walked about Carrboro a bit. I showed him my old house, an then we went and looked in the wndows of various athletic shops.
Today we have plans o go to a BBQ to benefit Special Olympics and feed the ducks again as we both really enjoy it.
At this point, I am annoyed with the whole dating thing. While I like P, I don't really like the way this is going, which is nowhere fast. He's always up for doing something fun, and I do enjoy spending time with him. BUT I also have my own life, and I feel a little like I'm wasting my time. Perhaps I am expecting too much, but it seems to m if you keep going out with someone for over a month you need to make decision about which way this is going to go. I'm not thinking about anything major, I;m thinking about perhaps during all that time when we are walking about he might like to hold my hand.
So, I am thinking about cancelling the BBQ/ducks plan in favor of recovering from the wine and going for a workout, as well as working on some home improvements. I suppose I am a bit crazy, I really do not have a millon options for romance t te moment, and P is really very fun, but….I think ifthis is the way things are then he gets to be my friend, but e doesn't get every single moment of my free time.