I have managed two full days now on the food template. I've been using it for 5 but only managed to eat all the stuff on the template for the past two days. I was sort of cutting down some portions and cheating a bit, but dealing with the Doctor on monday gave me a new resolve to actually do better.
I had to remind myself of what I call my "Senior Committment". A Senior Commitment is not when two Older Gay guys get married! It's instead the top priority. Generally when a person is having a problem, going back totheir senior committment allows them to choose the right choice for them, or refocus properly.
My Senior committment in this mess is to running for life. My Dad ran himself into the ground essentially. After two very fast Marathons he became so badly injured he would either need a very painful surgery or to quit running. After what must have been an agonizing time for him, he somehow quit. He misses it. So, I need to learn to protect the body I have. Part of that is apparently involves eating and running in Moderation….(well…moderation, meaning nice and easy, not 3 miles only…)
After that reminder I found it a little more easy to pack it in. I'd rather run than play with my food. And playing games with the program generally means that I will not progress as fast as I could.
It's a lot of food, especially crammed into three meals. I've felt absoloutely ill and bloated out. I have not, however, gained or lost any weight. So, thats actually interesting…the Nutritionist said I wouldn't but I didn't believe her, but she of course is right, so far…
On top of this, I find that people really do seem to want to share their opinions. I've had one nurse say that my lunch was too much food, another say it wasn't enough, and a variety of other food/weight related comments etc etc…All of this uninvited… I don't understand why everyone thinks that they know more about this situation than the nutritionist or Doctor. But yet they do! I guess because everyone eats, and many people exercise, they think they have an answer for me…. Luckily I am not buying into any one elses opinions. I've pretty much decided to trust the people who are working with me…they've seen this before, they aren't shady, wierd, or inappropriate.
At any rate. i am a little pleased about my two days of getting it in and not adding or losing any weight. Who knew? i feel much like a young child who's learned to do something like tie shoes….
Teulu is doing great. I switched him back to Nutro Brand Food and his energy level has just soared again…..I'm glad to see him so energetic, but at the same time, I sometimes think It might be time to go back to Iams, so he can be more mellow again….Of course, he is getting a bath sometime in the next 3 days….he's unaware of that.
thanks guys for listening to me. It's pretty repetitive and boring, but it helps to write it out….