I've had a tough week. Yes, I realize it's Sunday and technically the beginning of a week, but In general the past Seven days have been very difficult!.
I have done better about eating full normal sized meals. Thank heavens the nausea, and bloating seem to have somewhat passed. I still occasionally feel ill after a meal, but it's not so bad. I am still sweating at night, which I thought was some sort of hormonal thing, but they say its my metabolism…and I am still freezing after running, which no one seems to be able to explain. Tomorro, I am adding more food, which is not a big deal. It's a snack, and I plan to have an apple. Of course, I know on Thursday when I see the Nutritionist, I will be eating even more. I believe the plan is to up me eventually to about 2200-2400 calories a day. I hope that the nausea does not accompany each increase. I feel a lot of panic, because it is a ton of food for me. I keep thinking,
I'm going to be huge" So far no huge has appeared. I lost that one pound and am essentially the same size as I was.
I note that I did have a much much better running week. The last week I had eating on "MY plan" I managed to cover 14.75 miles. This week, to my surprise I ran 17.83. I've been aiming for 15 mile weeks. I got confused and thought Sunday was the start of a new week for me…no, it was the end of this one. My strength workouts were much improved. Trainer girl mentioned that the improvement was just short of a miracle. So I have to say based on results this is the way to go.
It's pretty uncomfortable. I still feel somewhat in shock. My biggest concern right now is that I might not be allowed to train. I've been trying to restrict myself a little and stop when tired, rather than when I said I would. But if I cant get the caloric increase they want, I don't know what may happen.
With all these changes I feel a bit overwhelmed and sad. I'm hoping to get a better handle on it by the end of the week….With being away from home and all, I am really really grateful for my trainer who is always smiling no matter what, and the nutritionist….not so sure about the doctor…he makes me a wee bit nervous.