Everything seems to be just rather "off" lately.
It looks like I am going to transfer to the Celebration Campus of Florida Hospital…
Where maybe I can become super nurse….Ha.
Its a different shift, 9a-7p 4 days a week. I emailed the director yesterday, he responded within an hour and offerred me two different shifts. the 10 hour one is very bizarre, but, after thinking about it, I realized this type of shift would actually help me with my running goals etc. As I'd be able to do a workout every single day if I wanted to…
I'm really nervous about any kind of job change. If I hate it, it's unlikely that I would just be able to transfer back. I think though it might be a place where I could advance a little in my career. but there are all those doubts, about if it is going to be a horrific move, if people will like me, if I will remain friends with the friends I made at the other hospital…
if I will make new friends….If I can advance a little in the job, or not, if I would be able to move to a 7-7 shift after some time if the 9-7 was not good…..etc etc etc….
On top of that:
Running lately has been terrible. My legs are hurting, the more time I take off, the faster the legs heal, but my base also gets destroyed each time I take a day off….
This is probably what has precipitated my completely foul mood.
Unfortunately it really crept up on me. So now I am in a bit of a pit of despair. I am having a lot of trouble running, and thus I have no interest in any type of gym work. Thus making it even more difficult when my leg starts to feel better…because my base is decimated. I feel so anxious about this its hard to describe. I have that Marathon coming up and I simply don't want to run it, but having friends coming in makes it very very difficult. Even today I am missing a super fun race sponsered by my hospital because my leg is in too much pain and I can't really run.
My main interest right now is sleeping and doing mindless activities like playing Bejewled Blitz on facebook. While both are excellent activities, they really aren't the end all be all. And the fact is that I know that if one continues to allow themselves to wallow, then most likely nothing is going to change, so it becomes a forcing to get out and do stuff that I used to like to do. Truth is I probably still like to do them, but it's just the apathy and frustration that is getting in the way.
I'm going to try to super schedule everything for the next week, forcing myself to get out to the gym, the pool, continue to set up the aquarium, meal planning, etc. And hopefully that will help me a lot….
And can someone explain why these animals are living in my neighbourhood????