Well I ran the big 20 today. It was awful.. I tell ya, awful. Horrific, miserable, unpleasant, uncomfortable…etc.
I was alright until about mile 10-14. By Mile 14, I became really like toast. My legs hurt. My neck and shoulders hurt. I just could not run well, so I kept jogging a little and walking a little. The worst part of it was that I had done an out and back, sooo, once I was out at Ten miles. I had no real choice except to Go Back. So Go back I did. And I continued. I thought about begging a ride from the bike shop guy, but I don’t know him, I am pretty sure that would have been strange…really.
I am unsure if I want to continue on with Marathon training for this year. People are really encouraging me to do so, but the people I know better are starting to agree that the agony that I am feeling isn’t worth it. I can continue to train and possibly in a year, it’s a better way. But we’ll see. I am going to do one more 20 miler (yuck!) and see how it goes. Bugger it all.
On top of that I have been just really annoyed with work drama. I like where I work. My Co-workers though are sort of insane. I am still trying to be friends with the woman who had the mental breakdown. I find however, that she seems to call me and want to go out and do things 3-4 times a week. She is a classic can not stand to be alone person. I just don’t have time in this Holiday craziness, but I want to be supportive. So there’s that.
The at work yesterday I was told by the charge I could go home at 4 pm, which would have been nice. Instead I get called in to the Med room by Fakey Blonde Barbie Nurse. And I mean more like this kind
of Barbie…..not the one below who looks a little bit sharp and put together.
Apparently Barbies Dad died one year ago and she was having a hard time of it, she tells me all tearfully. THing is that Nurse Barbie bursts out into tears almost every day I work with her. Something always has her upset. SO I am like…Ok go talk to the charge nurse. I would stay mostly to get her and her tears away from me. Unfortunately, I made the error of saying, “I don’t care” and also the words, “I dont need to hear this”….so now she and a few other people think I am not very nice. I was actually feeling a bit manipulated by her crying and such…and also sort of pushed up against a wall. On top of that since I rather dislike her on a regular basis this was just too much for me. Frankly, I really do not care! I mean, I do feel for people and dealing with death and loss and grief, and I am sure she was having her issues. I just think she could have either taken the day off…or called out sick. I just could not stand the whiney crying she was doing. I would have much rather worked 3 more hours than had to be so close to that! Ahh, I am an insensitive soul. So now one of the Charge nurses won’t return any of my texts, but I think in the end she will get over that. As it turns out it got a bit busy and no one got to go home. So now, I will have to deal with the fall out of my insensitivity. But she really is such a whiney pain in the behind. And I am apparently not sensitive.
So Joy reigns in my life this Holiday season!
One more shift. I hope barbie is working so I can try to apologize to her. It’s not going to go well, but I know that I should I just dont want to make it worse!
I hope Xmas is better. I did pick up my new shoes today. Early gift.