Today I feel much much much better than since the surgery. I was able to do a lot more of the basic household chores as well as walk in the library. I cycled at the gym and actually took it upon myself to start some of the upper body arm work that I can do now that I can stand on two feet. I might be turning the corner!
My Pain is present but now it seems to be mostly located in the adductor tendon, not near the operative site. The whole hip area feels very tight, sort of like there is a large rubber band stretched taut in the front part where your stomach and thigh meet.
My walking is a lot better. I am planning my movements less and just getting up and doing things when I want to (like getting a drink of water, or going to the bathroom.)
My incisions are still healing. They are taking forever, but when I think about it, he essentially drilled a hole through two parts of my upper thigh all the way to the bone, so the craters are filling in, and maybe by next week I shall be in the pool. It sort of irritates me because I’ve had all this time off, and I would have loved to use that time for swimming.
Still, it would seem…I feel pretty positive. I don’t have PT until Friday again, so I imagine by then my whole piriformis will be tied in a knot and I will have pain again, but I know that will be worked out by the PT.
One thing that annoys me no end is that people seem to think that I am somehow completely healed. I know that they don’t know and that they are trying to be positive, but it irritates me. I will start to jog short distances (like 5-15 mins) in like September. After that it will probably be another 6 months before I can do regular workouts without a lot of pain afterwards. The hip will be fully remodeled, or healed in about 18 months. I didn’t make up this schedule. It is Crazy long, but it is true.
I have experience with long healing with my left hand which I fractured some years ago. When I went back to work from that, my hand was still very very sore, and stiff. Since then, now 3 years my hand has progressively gotten less and less sore and more flexible. While there are still a few things that I just can not do with my hand, it is now not noticeable to others. Even six months to a year out of the hand surgery people still noticed that my hand was clumsy, but now they are surprised to hear it was fractured (even some hand surgeons have remarked that my guy did an excellent job.)
I keep getting these well meaning comments and emails from friends about “when are you going to start running again” Today I was invited on Facebook to run a Full Marathon in November! When I reminded her that I’ve had surgery, she sent me back an email telling me that I “Should wait until I felt ready to train again” and that “If you aren’t ready the races will always be there” There was this sort of sickly sweet tone that also sort of indicated that somehow I was just not tough enough. My PT always tells me to ignore it. And thats pretty much the only way to do it because correcting anyone always sounds bitchy and no one really wants to listen to a long description on how the body heals and remodels itself. I guess I want people to understand what a BIG deal it is for me and how much work it is going to take, but….that might be expecting too much from people, after all, most of us can not focus for more than 5 minutes anyway. And thus I get Very Irritated.
But what can one do…. It will get worse, about 6 months from now, as I’ll be back at work, and indeed people will be wondering why I’m not hitting up the miles.
Looks like I will be learning patience with myself and with others….