Well, I never did figure out what my issue was…. on Monday. New Crisis appeared over the weekend. Funny thing was that it wasn’t a crisis, but people chose to act as if it were. So that was kind of relaxing, but it took about 2 days to put out the supposed fire. Each time I attempted to douse the flames, someone else jumped on the flaming bandwagon.
The good news…I FINALLY found a decent framework for the big project that had me kind of freaked out. I got started on it yesterday and found it was not that difficult, and was actually interesting and will help us approach challenges differently and more effectively I hope.
So that felt great. I have been dreading this project, and as is often the case, I think the “anticipation” dread was far worse than the project itself. I also lowered my standards a bit, thus making it easier to complete. The report that I do will still be more complete than it has been in a long time, but it won’t be quite as detailed as I would like. I am learning that the powers that be don’t really want all the details that I find interesting, they just want the basics. We can work with that.
Toughest job I have ever had in my life, this one. I gotta say, I got a lot of community admiration when I said, “Oh yes I work in the Emergency Department” and now when I tell people I do infection prevention, I get the bland look, or, “Oh that’s a nice job” They have no idea. I do kind of regret my choice, but at the same time, it was a choice I made…and now I get to learn and live with it.
It’s not that uncomfortable of a choice, it is just different. Having this type of job has definitely lead me to different friendships, a greater understanding of some things, and a lot of frustration. I am not sure I’d choose it again, but at the same time, I’m not entirely desperate to go back to my old job. I feel like I can take it or leave it, which actually makes things easier, since I’m not entirely attached to anything.
So there’s the good news.
Other good news.
Training is going fine. I slept in yesterday and have a weights workout to make up.
THe Bad news is that my right hip is starting to have the same symptoms that my left one did before surgery. It’s hard to tell if it is actually a torn labrum or just like a sore spot on my leg. I’m running fine, Swimming fine, and cycling fine. No real pain. Only discomfort when I am sitting…My massage therapist refused to touch that area…which is a bad bad bad sign. I’m afraid to tell the coach for fear he will sic the pool on me, and I am afraid to go to the MD, because I don’t really want to go through the MRI etc. It’s also only been a problem for about a week or two, so I am wondering if it might “go away” I’m very irritated as I am training well. I’m definitely going to do my two races this year no matter what. But then we will have to see after that. I just do not think I can bear another recovery period like the last one. Admittedly, this time would be easier, as I have a job I could do post surgery which would get me out of the house sooner than 3 months. Secondly I am physically stronger and in better shape so the recovery would theoretically be faster, but…
Arrrugh. I think I should make the MD appointment.