It has been a pretty good year for me, right up until October.
I have settled into my job quite a bit more. I’ve really enjoyed seeing the positive results of many of the programs I’ve instituted. I no longer have super anxiety like I did last year at this time. Some things are still very confusing and difficult, but it’s a lot better. My hours which were cut in the summer, have now been restored for the full 40 hour work week. So I also have some money I am not used to having.
My training for the most part went very very well. I had some FUN races... and I was starting to see some real fitness being built. I learned to negotiate some things, and developed some new skills in training. Even though I have suffered quite a set back, most of those lessons still hold true and I just have to rebuild.
While I surely have not found the love of my life, I have some really solid friendships, and a great support system here in Florida. I’m lucky that I work with people I genuinely LIKE, RESPECT and ADMIRE. I’m lucky that my outside of work friends are the same- really wonderful people. Not everyone has co-workers who seem to have your back, and to have friends on top of that well, it’s really great.
Despite all of this, I am feeling a bit BLUE about the Holidays.
In thinking about it, I realize now this is probably because much of my holiday plans were centered around the Race on December 29, smack in the middle of Holiday week. Because of this, I didn’t make plans to go home and see my family, for either Thanksgiving or Christmas. Now, with there not being quite as intense training/focus during that time I feel a bit out of the loop. I may still go for Thanksgiving, just to see my family, but I think it might be very inconvenient for my parents who have a small home, and it is really set up for just one family to visit. I always end up being shuffled out to the couch, and then everyone feels awkward, and etc.
I know I have another shot at another race, but I just want people reading to understand that the December race was essentially a stepping stone to my Ultimate Bucket List Item and for the first time, it seemed as if I was going to achieve it…I’ve been working for this since about 2009. So, when that was crushed, it was like someone snatched my project away from me and didn’t even really give me any Jello pudding. It really has been hard for me.
So, keeping in mind the verse that really hit me…
Do nothing out of selfish ambition or vain conceit, but in humility consider others better than yourselves. Each of you should look not only to your interests, but also to the interests of others.
And then looking at some Operation Christmas CHild Videos, I decided this year, I really should just “Give Christmas Away”
So…with that in mind…I’m really focusing on those people who “have it worse” than I do. And this year, there are SO MANY people and families hurting that I’m aware of.
So in that spirit, I’m going to do my Operation Christmas Child Boxes as always… (Look for a post on them soon!)
I also have an address and a wish list for a unit serving in Afghanistan. These are people I know through a co-worker who served with them, SO, if you want to donate to troops- this one is not a scam, let me know- I can forward you the address.
I’m going to shop for the local food donation this week.
In addition, I know 2 families that have lost Fathers this year, both with young children. I can not imagine the pain that these young widows are feeling, and while money will not ease that pain, it can ease worry, so I will be finding a way to discreetly slip some gift cards to them.
And I know one family who has been touched by leukemia. I’m still working on a package that will support that family in the best possible way…but I want it to go out in the last week in November.
ANyone Care to join me in Giving Christmas away in 2013?