So I’m Post Operative Day 5. Everything seems to be going well, except for the toes numbness.
Now. There is nothing I can do about it. I noted in the hospital the first time I got up as I was traversing the halls that my toes were getting numb. I asked the Physical Therapist if I should be concerned, and she said, Not at all, that I would be feeling different sensations for days after.
I asked the PA about it. He said he wasn’t concerned.
On Wednesday, post operative day 2 I called the office and asked about it again. The PA again called me back and said it wasn’t a big deal.
It bothers me because everyone else who has had this surgery had not had persistent symptoms after the procedure. They have had tingling and burning in their legs, but not numbness that increases with walking.
So my anxiety level is up because it does go away when I’ve been laying flat for a few hours. So it seems to me something is still compressing the nerve when I am walking.
But, since no one else is alarmed, there is nothing I can do. It is a strange feeling of being completely out of control of what is happening to ones body.
So I’m stuck, since no one is going to be concerned about it, I shouldn’t be either because there is Nothing that can be done. Even if I were to call daily, all I am going to hear is that this is normal. That frustrates me because I kind of feel it isn’t normal. I was told I would have significant relief from my symptoms, and the one symptom that drove me nuts, remains.
I think I can get used to it, if it doesn’t progress as I progress. I mean, if it gets crazy worse when I am running in 6 months that is going to be terrible, if it just stays kind of numb like now, then I will live with it just fine.
Kind of a waiting game now.
It’s a little bit hard not to feel dejected, because recovery time is after all, a lot of time alone, laying around. Hoping against hope that things will improve.
I am going to drive myself to the gym today and try to use a plastic bag and the walk in shower to get feeling really really clean. I suppose that can help.
Mostly I feel tired and a little bit anxious, all I can do is wait for the Post Operative Follow up appointment on Thursday or Friday.
And then Next Monday I return to work, where I shall at least be somewhat distracted from the persistent thoughts.
I would not even mind going through the surgery again, if it would take the numbness away…
But I am reminded of this, posted by a friend who has severe back issues…
The numb toes are just an obstacle. They don’t hurt. As long as they do not prevent me from becoming active again, then I will just have to get used to them. I mean really. That’s what I can do.