I’ve probably got some unpopular thoughts on Paris.
The events of last night are really haunting and devastating. Such a coordinated attack…in so many places, making it so hard to have a coordinated response.
Now, like many, I’ve been to Paris. I enjoyed it, though I was mostly there for work. My French is atrocious, and I was lost a lot of the time. Parisians however, were really lovely people and helped me a lot even though it was obvious I was American. So.. it kind of hit home. Like many others, I know many French citizens, and actually I hope and pray that I don’t see any Medicines Sans Frontieres people on those death lists, but I know….there are probably some folks on there.
So. I share the grief of the world. What I have not been able to do, however, is change my FB icon to a French Flag… or to post one of many very moving art memes expressing sorrow over the events. Honestly, none of these things disturb me…but yet, I can’t seem to click and post. Why not? Well…. they might make me feel better, feel like I “did something”, feel solidarity… I’ve seen some beautiful tributes and been touched by the outcry from so many people, But honestly every time I consider it, I just feel so depressed. We humans now do this. Four days later we forget. In reality the really heart rending pictures will do very little. (They surely don’t hurt anything I think). I honestly do not know what to “DO”. This to me was a terrifying event, and I just can not see how I personally can combat this evil. Yes, I can be loving and open and caring, and etc but even that… isn’t going to help secure the world. Trump’s idiotic idea of building walls, also will not help.
I’m at a complete loss, but I just can’t at this moment…so instead my icon remains the same, and I imagine people think I’m some sort of unfeeling beast, but I just can’t being myself to join in…. maybe tomorrow. I honestly wish there was something more tangible that I could do.